Longing to Write.



I have always wanted to be a writer. I envy you that you are.  I have been told since College that "Writer's write."  I guess I gave up long ago. Most people who know me know me well enough to know that I can be very stubborn when I want to be. Combine stubbornness and perfectionism and you have the perfect excuse to not write. and so I don't.  I would like to write. I've had people ask me to write more. But I can't seem to do it.

I was watching the Bush Library opening yesterday and I was struck by the fact that President Bush paints for three hours every day! Thinking back on his administration I am struck by the fact that he and I share stubbornness  He has the advantage of having discipline.  I have none. Never have.  So, how do I become a writer?  I've been told countless times to be disciplined about it. Write for an hour every day without censorship. But I fail. I make lots of pretty noises and set up blogs or post things to FB... I think the longest I've gone has been a couple of weeks.

I certainly have enough material.
Several near death experiences
a chronic debilitating medical condition
chronic pain
experience as a chaplain on a Hospice floor
Seminary
My fight with Depression
My mother's Alzheimer's
Being a stay at home Dad and being part of a very strange sort of almost reverse discrimination.

Another part of my problem is that I really love to read. I would much prefer to read than write. But, let's be honest. I also love watching television!  I really don't understand how folks like Gigi and Adrienne or any of my other blogger friends do it. They all have houses to keep clean, books to read, Doctor's appointments, kids to pick up.  How do they do it?  I would love to know.  I have 2 distinct audiences waiting. I've been asked to be a guest blogger. I know there really is no secret to doing it other than simply doing it.  Here's hoping I can continue with it...