44 years ago today

I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. So we have come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. So we have come to cash this check — a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quick sands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

Martin Luther King, Jr., delivering his 'I Have a Dream' speech from the steps of Lincoln Memorial. (photo: National Park Service)

But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force. The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny and their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom. We cannot walk alone.

As we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied, as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We can never be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair.

I say to you today, my friends, so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; one day right there in Alabama, little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together.

This is our hope. This is the faith that I go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring."

And if America is to be a great nation this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!

Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California!

But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!

Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

And when this happens, When we allow freedom to ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

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Thanks to Stanford University , and this site for the text.

It's been a few days...

since I've written.
I've been cranky, moody and grumpy. My three favorite elves.

One of my favorite TV shows features someone else who is frequently in the same mood. It's a travel show featuring a New York chef who's narcissistic, misanthropic, atheistic and in may ways generally unpleasant. Oh, and he hates vegetarians. Sounds like he and I would get along famously. (What's really funny is re-reading that description, it sounds like a description that would match a few of my closest friends!)

In a recent show on French Polynesia, Bourdain followed the travels of the painter Paul Gauguin. I've never really liked Gauguin, don't really know why. I've seen a bunch of his stuff at the Art Institute, It's nice, great colors, interesting subject, but it never really excited me.

In the show, Bourdain travels to the Marguesas Islands. He meets with some of the indigenous Maori. His guide gives him a tour of some archaeological sites on the island. The guide shows Bourdain some wonderful stone statues that sat in the temples. Of course, they had been damaged and many destroyed by the Christian missionaries that came to save the souls of the heathens.

Gauguin is alternately described in the episode by Bourdain as a "dope fiend" "syphilitic" "pederast" "transvestite" and a few other things I choose not to remember. Yet Gauguin, who wouldn't even be allowed in the front door many churches then or today, recognized, and captured the inherent divinity of what surrounded him. The missionaries tried only to destroy what surrounded them in order to replace it with their own version. As a result, 95% of the indigenous population was wiped out by disease or violence. Fortunately, we have the work of as, Bourdain described him, "a cranky, syphilitic, pederast," to remind us of the beauty of God's creation. Isn't it funny that the artist preserved the divine which the church had tried to destroy?
Paul Gauguin
Day of the God (Mahana no Atua)
1894
O
il on canvas
26 7/8 x 36 in. (68.3 x 91.5 cm)
Art Institute of Chicago
W
ildenstein Gauguin 1964 513 Helen Birch Bartlett Memorial Collection
1926.198
Medieval to Modern European Painting and Sculpture
Gallery 234b

Thoughts on the war

As I write this, an F-18 is rattling my windows and setting off car alarms. It's the air show. In Baghdad, that F-18 would be carrying ordnance and be on its way to blow something up.

Meanwhile, I read this.

Guilty Pleasure

The Chicago Air and Water show is this weekend. Given that I'm a liberal, vegetarian, latte drinking intellectual pacifist, I should be sitting with the folks who come out every year to protest this advertisement for the military industrial complex.

But I'm not. We may take a break from housework, walk down to the beach to watch. Running errands yesterday I saw the A/C... (sorry, old habit, A/C is the industry abbreviation for aircraft. I spent too many years in aviation law!)

Anyway, on the way to Costco, I saw the plane I've most wanted to see fly right over us.

The F22 Raptor

It's an amazing aircraft. Built by Boeing and Lockheed-Martin.

Yes, I understand that it was designed to shoot down other airplanes and kill the people inside, which then makes it easier for Bombers and support a/c to get to their targets, thus killing more people. I realize that and it bothers me. A little.

But it is so cool! When it went over, I could clearly see the thrust vectoring engines. What was really amazing, was how quiet it was. He was at about 2,ooo feet, flew right over us and I could barely hear it. Earlier in the day, at a similar altitude, (and probably a bit higher) an F-18 Super Hornet almost broke the windows of our condo. Any lower, he would've set off car alarms.

Anyway, I've got chores to start on. We'll see about going to the beach today. I'll let you know how I do with my contradictions. I wrote a piece in college called "Playing Soldier" that explains it a bit. If I can find it, maybe I'll post it. In the meantime, I'm gonna open the windows so I can hear the jets better. I'll leave you with this.

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself,
(I am large, I contain multitudes.)
Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"

Being Sick Sucks Part III, The Backlash!

Thanks for your comments. Lovely wife found the American Heart Association classification.

Class III. Patients with cardiac disease resulting in marked limitation of physical activity. They are comfortable at rest. Less than ordinary activity causes fatigue, palpitation, dyspnea, or anginal pain. C. Objective evidence of moderately severe cardiovascular disease.
Class IV. Patients with cardiac disease resulting in inability to carry on any physical activity without discomfort. Symptoms of heart failure or the anginal syndrome may be present even at rest. If any physical activity is undertaken, discomfort is increased. D. Objective evidence of severe cardiovascular disease.

Sounds like I might qualify. We'll see what Dr. Love says tomorrow.

Being sick sucks part II


I just went to talk to the Dean of Students. I've been sending both deans email trying to keep them updated on the whole potential surgery thing. Now that I'm not having it done, I went to talk with DoS. I wanted to thank her personally. She wanted to talk about how she could make things easier for me. The issue of parking came up. Parking at school could be politely described as a nightmare. Frequently last semester I had to walk over half a mile just to get to the building. It's a nice walk. But it is much less so dragging a book bag. It becomes downright dangerous doing it in the winter. So, DoS suggested I use the Handicapped parking space. Lovely wife Mo has mentioned the same thing. Naturally, I totally disagree with both of them.

I'm not really sure why I am so resistant to the idea. In private discussions, I frequently bemoan the fact that I don't look like I have a serious health problem. It bothers me when Lovely Wife carries heavy stuff and I walk behind her empty handed. It really isn't a macho thing. I guess what bothers me is that when you look at us, it looks like I'm just being a jerk! People might question my upbringing. Believe me, I have an older sister who made it perfectly clear that I was to open doors for her. My father is also rather "Old School" in that way. My Mother is from the Carolinas; She's a true Southern Lady! So, believe me, I was "Raised Right!" I've always been proud of being a gentleman. (Lovely Wife would tell you that I've gotten out of the habit and no longer open car doors for her. I intend to remedy that.)
So, if I appeared to be as "disabled" or "handicapped" as I am, people might understand why LWM carries stuff. They also might understand me better in general.

So, back to the parking thing. It makes a bit of sense for me to get the permit. But I'm a bit conflicted. I'm not sure if I qualify. I guess I'll let the Dr. determine that. I certainly don't need it every day. It is only really a problem during the winter. It also just bothers me to think about parking in one of those spots and getting out and simply walking away from the car. It is all just so frustrating; It's just another thing to be angry about...

"Being sick sucks..."

My lovely wife Mo sent me a link the other day. Professional Patient wrote:

I had an “aha!” moment recently. I realized that I have been desperately waiting for someone to recognize how brave I am, and let me know they are proud of me for being so brave. Being sick sucks… why can't someone realize how brave you MUST be to deal with it day after day?

I've given that recognition to myself with the following list of affirmations. I'm sharing it with you in case you, too, are looking for someone somewhere to pat you on the back for being a brave girl or boy!

Her affirmations are wonderful.

I am lucky to have a ton of people around who are very affirming and loving. When I sent out an email letting people know about the possibility of surgery. I got a lot of love back. But I still need affirmation. Her list was very helpful.

I found out last night that I won't be having surgery. This prompted me to add one to her list:
You are brave when you are disappointed that you are not having surgery!

I am a bit disappointed. But, I'm also a bit thankful. We can get on with our lives now with no interruption.


I have frequently said that serious illness is just as hard and in some ways harder on the family than it is on the patient. After all, I get narcotics! :) I think my family and friends deserve a list of affirmations too.
  1. You are brave when you spend more time in doctors offices for somebody else's checkup than you do for your own.
  2. You are brave when you know where the waiting room in every hospital in town is.
  3. You are brave when you know your husband 's medical history as well as your own.
  4. You are brave when you worry about outliving your child.
  5. You are brave when you take a midnight road trip to visit a friend in an ICU 300 miles away.
  6. You are brave when your little brother asks you to check his IV site.
  7. You are brave when you ask, "Did you take your medicine?"
  8. You are brave when you ask, " How's the pain today?"
  9. You are brave when you say, "Here, let me carry that."
I have a lot of very, very brave people in my life, who make it easier for me to add to Professional Patient's list. I can never say thank you enough. If anybody reads this, maybe they can add some more to my list to help me say thank you...


I LOVE THIS TOWN!!!!

Cop writes a ticket for giant sausage

Wienermobile ticketed

Tribune photo by Kevin Pang, August 9, 2007

A Chicago police officer tickets the Oscar Meyer Wienermobile in the 400 block of North Michigan Avenue.

By Kevin Pang | Tribune staff reporter

In a rare occurrence of an encased meat vehicle committing a traffic violation, Chicago police ticketed the Oscar Meyer Wienermobile for illegal parking on the Magnificent Mile.

The incident began at 10:57 a.m. in the 400 block of North Michigan Avenue. At least two members of the Wienermobile entourage left the vehicle in the three-lane street with its emergency blinkers on. The vehicle is registered to Kraft Foods under the Wisconsin license plate "WEENR."

A police officer approached the Chevrolet vehicle with the 27-foot fiberglass sausage and removable bun roof. The officer radioed for a tow truck.

Matt Smith of the city's Streets and Sanitation department said the city could handle the job.

"We have access to tow trucks that could have handled a Polish sausage, not just a hot dog," he said.

The officer wrote the ticket and affixed it with considerable relish to its foot-long side mirror. Ed Walsh, a spokesman for the city Department of Revenue, said parking in a "Parking/Standing Prohibited Anytime" zone is a $50 violation.

About 15 minutes later, as curious passersby snapped pictures with their camera phones, the driver and passenger of the vehicle returned before tow trucks could arrive.

The entourage received a verbal scolding from the officer.

"You can't just park here!" the officer barked.

One passenger, who declined to be identified, said they were visiting a Wienermobile alumnus who worked nearby but was unaware that one could not park a giant sausage in the middle of the city's busiest thoroughfare.

Kraft Foods did not return a call for comment. The hot dog was last seen driving north on Michigan.

kpang@tribune.com

Theodicy Redux

My dear friend Winston, whom I adore, has an interesting hobby. He likes to discuss things with people he's never met! He spends a lot of time on the 'net with his own blog. He also makes comments on others'. Recently, he's been discussing Theodicy. He's posted a couple of pieces. His most recent started as a comment made on another blogger's site which then moved to his. The discussion spans several pages and two or three different sites. It is fascinating, long, rather technical and for the most part, rather well written. The initial comment was about a video that I didn't watch. I was more interested in the discussion. As usual, Winston got me thinking. (Although I admit, I'm a bit preoccupied with the issue of God's justice and suffering right now. I must say, I'm still a little mad at "Him!")

I think the problem of evil/suffering is the most difficult question Christians/Theologians/People of Faith face. For many, it seems a rather simple discussion. The simplest position is that God causes/allows bad things to happen because we are evil. My sister (who steadfastly maintains she is not a theologian and knows very little about the Bible) articulated the criticism of that position saying, "Isn't that the Old Testament God? What about the whole Jesus, God is Love thing?" (Not a theologian. Yeah, right!)

Anyway,

Both of these positions, in their absolute forms have limitations. Most arguments on this issue invariably degenerate into various levels of proof-texting. Some arguments are better than others. But usually, these discussions generate much more heat than light. (This is not to say that I think these discussions shouldn't occur; far from it. I am a Wesleyan after all.)

The bottom line: I don't know why bad things happen. I wrote about suffering previously. I'll continue to write about it. My ministry is entirely dedicated to it. It doesn't get me any closer to an answer. But what helps me is to know that God knows. What's more, God has a purpose.

A professor says simply "God works for good in everything." I firmly believe that. I would've gone insane long ago if I hadn't. I don't know why bridges collapse. I don't know why 18 year olds die from mysterious diseases. I don't know why people I love are in pain. I don't know why I have faulty parts. But God does. God has a reason for all of this.

Now, that sort of begs the question. Couldn't God figure out a way to accomplish his goal without all the suffering? After all, were, talking about God! I have at least 5 books on my bookshelf that work on answering that question. They are all written by folks much smarter than me. I won't summarize their arguments here. (That's way too much like schoolwork!) There are also some Bible verses that work on that question. But I won't quote scripture at you. (I've already criticized proof-texting.) But I do believe one thing that helps me.

I believe God suffers with us.

Gods sits next to us, puts an arm around us, and helps us cry.

Finally!

My fellow baseball fans, our long national nightmare is over!

Getty Images Photo by Justin Sullivan ( August 7, 2007)

Now we can get back to worrying about the playoffs. And hopefully, the only time I'll have to hear the word steroids is when they are prepping me for another CT scan. For the record, I'm pleased for Barry and for the Giants and their fans. It is appropriate and just that the record was broken in San Francisco where Bonds has been supported throughout this controversy. I am saddened that the controversy overshadowed the accomplishment. Now I hope we can put all this behind us and enjoy the game again.

I realize that the quote I stole from President Ford was about a crisis a bit more important than whether or not Barry cheated. But Barry's record, the history of problems in the Tour de France, and the state of political discourse and just about everything else in the newspaper makes me wonder about the status of truth.

While I was visiting my family last weekend, I made one of the off the cuff , pot-stirring comments that my classmates, if not my family, have come to expect from me. Frequently, I am not sure if my comments actually reflect my opinion, but they usually start some pretty good conversations! In this case, it was:

Since ultimate truth is unknowable, the only thing that matters is what one believes.

So what does all this have to do with baseball? I grew up and continue to be a passionate baseball fan. My favorite player as a kid was Lou Brock. I had posters in my room with pictures of him setting the career stolen base record. Of course, Rickey Henderson would break it a few years later. But if you ask me today who the greatest base stealer of all time was, I'll say Lou Brock! Perhaps this is why I'm not so terribly upset by Barry breaking the record. It'll be broken in a few years. Maybe by A-Rod, maybe by Ryan Howard. What won't change is how people feel about Hank Aaron or whoever else they hold as a hero. And maybe that is a good thing.


a picture

I've got too much going on in my head to really be able to slow my thoughts down enough to capture them on the keyboard. Maybe later today I'll come up with something. But for now, perhaps this will makes me and you feel a bit better.

From Mom's rosebush:

Quite a weekend.

Saw my surgeon, spent the weekend with my parents. Got honored by my mother church with a scholarship. Had a CT this morning and am full of antihistamines and steroids as I have developed an allergy to the CT over all these years. Mo drove us home (all 300 miles of it.)

So, I'm home and I wait for the results. I will need surgery eventually, the question only remains what type and when. It may be a few days, it may be a few years. We'll see what the scan says. Tomorrow, we go back to our regular scheduling programing. Tonight I sleep.

Now, where did I leave that damn oilcan?